HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLO

It's been forever,
i am aware.


SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO TELL YOU OMFG !

Jenna and Christina and I are kinda sorta friends .
Although i'm defiantly not trusting them right away .
I'm taking things very slowly and cautiously .
Because really they don't even deserve my trust .
Jenna especially .
It seems a little fishy...
whatever for know we're not enemies and it's all good .


Cameron (:
Cameron Cameron Cameron !
we had the most RANDOM convo yesterday, i'll post it here .
so i didn't save all of itbut at the beginning I had said
LOL everyone is asking me if we're dating and he said tell them yes,
i told him, that would be a lie .
and he said not reeeeeaaaaaaaallllly, w're practically an old married couple
and im like yeah we have fifteen kids all beingning with 'A' ( just randomly lmao)
and yeah here we go .

Cam says:

LOLOL

Cam says:

everyone would think we're physcos

- Winterr. <3>

we are .

Cam says:

I agree

Cam says:

Winter ****

- Winterr. <3>

lmao

- Winterr <3>

we're going to be that family that the other kids parents dotn wat thier kids to play with

- Winterr. <3>

because our kids are going to be greasy

- Winterr. <3>

which is how me save money on our water bill

Cam says:

lmfao you are cheap

Cam says:

I always knew it

Cam says:

we wont allow our babys to play with anyone who's name doesnt start with "a"

- Winterr <3>

LMAO THATS SUCH A BRILLIANT IDEA

- Winterr <3>

we could make a whole 'a' cult

- Winterr <3>

and they cant marry or date outside of the 'a' cult

Cam says:

YES!!!

Cam says:

AND ITS NOT EVEN RASIST

Cam says:

YES

Cam says:

THATS THE NEW PLAN

Cam says:

AND WE WILL TRY ELIMINATING ALL THE "Z"

- Winterr. <3>

LMAO

- Winter. <3>

YES

- Winterr. <3>

we can stand on highway's with signs that say

A IS FIRST

Z IS LAST

Cam says:

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Cam says:

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Cam says:

"A's"

ahaha, just a random thing for you to enjoy (:

i guess i didn't have alot to tell you but, yeah there you are (:
oh and i did pretty good on exams
Drama- 85
Science- 60 ( which may not seem good to you, but to me is amazing ;)
History-65 ( LOL shit mark! )
Religion-83

yeah thats all,
xoxo,
Winter

so, don't kill me .

I'm Sorry .
we talked.
I forgave him, again.
i would post the convo here, but it won't really make sense .
I'll give you the just of it .

He starts the conversation with,
Cameron : Now would be a good time for YOU to apologize
Me: ME ? apologize to you ?
Him: yeah

well it continues on and on and then we talk, he apologizes and explains.
then i tell him how, i should leave, i want to leave but, i can't .
and he says he really doesn't want me to leave .
i tell him that he's lied to me, he's hurt me and i stay, even though i shouldn't
then he says " lie to you ?"
uhm yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
So i kindly explain about how he had a girlfriend despite telling me he wanted to wait .
then he YELLS AT ME telling me that again he BARELY spoke to me and the only time we actually spoke was in the summer when we met .
then we talk about dating and he says that he really doesn't want to risk it, because we date it doesn't last, we don't speak and he looses me .
( which to me sounds like COMMITMENT !!!! RUN !!!! )
i kept trying to explain to him that, if i actually could stop talking to him, i probably would have LONG ago.
skjfkdhsaj;kfhdjklfhdas
I know I know, over and over again, every time we do this, every time we fight .
i forgive him
Then we are back to square one .
i really shouldn't do this again.
i know, everyone tells me the same thing,
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
and
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
and my personal favorite .
OMG I HONESTLY I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS .

oh and Christine, i can't view your blog >:|
Every time i click on your name, it says oh Christine doesn't exist, so if anyone knows how to fix this problem, please let me know .

that's all i have to say,

xoxo,
Winter

this is what happened .

So, after i posted that .
i asked him about it, because i didn't find out from him.
he told me the usual, to 'ruhlax' and that he barely talked to me in january when it happened
and it was only for 3 weeks, it wasn't even 'offical' .
i didn't even call him out for telling me, that he didn't want to date until he's 18 .
I didn't ask him, why he did this .
i just told him, i'd call him at midnight .
so throught the course of the night, i kept getting prank calls from a blocked number, they called me 19 times.
they were just screaming, "fucking skank, why are you talking shit about me you fat bitch ?"
so, obviously i ask, " Who is this, i don't even know you ? "
" Who is this ?"
" Winter"
"WHO ?"
"WINTER"
"WHO ?!"
" CAN YOU SPEAK ENGLISH, WIN-TER"
"i can speak f*cking english, William ?"
" NO WINTER LIKE THE SEASON WE ARE IN"
"OH"
"Who is this ?"
"WHOSE THIS?"
"omfg, get a life, goodbye"

so then, i figure out, the calls are comming from Cameron .
i figured out it was his friends who hate me.
so, i call him, and his friends answer and hang up .
he calls back and asks what i wanted .
i tell him about the stupid calls and how he needs to grow the fuck up .
he said he never called me .
i was like you called me 19 times, maybe if you see me sometime i'll show you .
and then i hung up .
they kept calling but i stopped answering .
then at 12:05 he calls, and i answered .
He said .
" Happy New Year !"
" Happy New Year !"
" Hope it's a good one wihtout me "
*click *
and he's on msn now, but he hasn't spoken to me .
and i'm not going to try and patch things up,
because even if he does speak to me and apologize,
it's too late, he should have done it with his friends there .
if he cared about me it shouldn't matter what his friends think .
he would have said " leave her alone"
or something .

but he didn't .
and he won't .
and i deserve better than that .
or at least i hope so .

but at the same time, i'm sad and upset and i feel like craaaaaaaaaap .
but i know things will get better .
eventually .


guys, thanks for being so supportive
it means alot to me .


xoxo,
Winter .