this is what happened .

So, after i posted that .
i asked him about it, because i didn't find out from him.
he told me the usual, to 'ruhlax' and that he barely talked to me in january when it happened
and it was only for 3 weeks, it wasn't even 'offical' .
i didn't even call him out for telling me, that he didn't want to date until he's 18 .
I didn't ask him, why he did this .
i just told him, i'd call him at midnight .
so throught the course of the night, i kept getting prank calls from a blocked number, they called me 19 times.
they were just screaming, "fucking skank, why are you talking shit about me you fat bitch ?"
so, obviously i ask, " Who is this, i don't even know you ? "
" Who is this ?"
" Winter"
"WHO ?"
"WINTER"
"WHO ?!"
" CAN YOU SPEAK ENGLISH, WIN-TER"
"i can speak f*cking english, William ?"
" NO WINTER LIKE THE SEASON WE ARE IN"
"OH"
"Who is this ?"
"WHOSE THIS?"
"omfg, get a life, goodbye"

so then, i figure out, the calls are comming from Cameron .
i figured out it was his friends who hate me.
so, i call him, and his friends answer and hang up .
he calls back and asks what i wanted .
i tell him about the stupid calls and how he needs to grow the fuck up .
he said he never called me .
i was like you called me 19 times, maybe if you see me sometime i'll show you .
and then i hung up .
they kept calling but i stopped answering .
then at 12:05 he calls, and i answered .
He said .
" Happy New Year !"
" Happy New Year !"
" Hope it's a good one wihtout me "
*click *
and he's on msn now, but he hasn't spoken to me .
and i'm not going to try and patch things up,
because even if he does speak to me and apologize,
it's too late, he should have done it with his friends there .
if he cared about me it shouldn't matter what his friends think .
he would have said " leave her alone"
or something .

but he didn't .
and he won't .
and i deserve better than that .
or at least i hope so .

but at the same time, i'm sad and upset and i feel like craaaaaaaaaap .
but i know things will get better .
eventually .


guys, thanks for being so supportive
it means alot to me .


xoxo,
Winter .