so, don't kill me .

I'm Sorry .
we talked.
I forgave him, again.
i would post the convo here, but it won't really make sense .
I'll give you the just of it .

He starts the conversation with,
Cameron : Now would be a good time for YOU to apologize
Me: ME ? apologize to you ?
Him: yeah

well it continues on and on and then we talk, he apologizes and explains.
then i tell him how, i should leave, i want to leave but, i can't .
and he says he really doesn't want me to leave .
i tell him that he's lied to me, he's hurt me and i stay, even though i shouldn't
then he says " lie to you ?"
uhm yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
So i kindly explain about how he had a girlfriend despite telling me he wanted to wait .
then he YELLS AT ME telling me that again he BARELY spoke to me and the only time we actually spoke was in the summer when we met .
then we talk about dating and he says that he really doesn't want to risk it, because we date it doesn't last, we don't speak and he looses me .
( which to me sounds like COMMITMENT !!!! RUN !!!! )
i kept trying to explain to him that, if i actually could stop talking to him, i probably would have LONG ago.
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I know I know, over and over again, every time we do this, every time we fight .
i forgive him
Then we are back to square one .
i really shouldn't do this again.
i know, everyone tells me the same thing,
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
and
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
and my personal favorite .
OMG I HONESTLY I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS .

oh and Christine, i can't view your blog >:|
Every time i click on your name, it says oh Christine doesn't exist, so if anyone knows how to fix this problem, please let me know .

that's all i have to say,

xoxo,
Winter